Tuesday, December 30, 2008
I had wondered about this today while watching NFL Networks Coach firing watch.. it briefly crossed my mind... But never in my WILDEST DREAMS did i ever think bowlen would actually do it. I am COMPLETELY STUNNED! I don't know what to think ... My stomach is really Upset about this... This is a TOTAL END of an era.. Although, i know we needed a Change.. this really Saddens me! I Have been A Broncos fan all my Life,But, this is a Coach that Brought Honor to this Franchise! He came and Finnally The Broncos Won a Superbowl after Losing 4! When i first found out i was shocked and was thinking.. well, im not really all that suprized.. but, to be TOTALLY honest.. i Never in a million years thought it would actually happen but, the more it has sunk in the sadder it makes me WOW..Its like losing an extended family member you really admired..
Friday, December 26, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
I was just thinking.. I haven't blogged since sunday...
Man, its been a busy few days.... Or maybe i just haven't had anything that i wanted ruminate about. I am SO glad all of the busyness is over with, My son is Here! and Now i can relax!YAY! then after christmas, 2 days of work.. then i am off for a week! a Whole week for me to spend with my Son who BTW lives with his dad In harrisburg Pa. After this i wont see him until july, so i am going to get my matty fix to hold me over until july I am going to post some pictures of me him and my other kids...
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Psalm 106:1-3 (English Standard Version)1 Praise the LORD! Oh give thanks to the LORD, for he is good,
for his steadfast love endures forever!
That is Definatly a "Daughter i have my hand on the Situation and have it under control" kinda message :)
God is GOOD!
Why Am i All ways Wrong? If i do things the way i think i should.. its wrong... if i Do what you ask.... I'm expected to read your mind and know what i am suppose to do, and then when i don't, because i Cant read your mind, I'm in the wrong.. When am i Ever In the right? Why Is it all ways because something I have done. I am Selfish, I am Inconsiderate. What about you? When are you responsible? Are you Ever responsible? or is it all ways me like it seems. No one is EVER wrong 100% of the time. But it sure feels like it. why cant you see that your Refusal to own your bad moods and your refusal to communicate your needs to me, instead of expecting me to read your mind, Hurts me and Hurts our relationship because I CANT read your Mind, and i never will be able to, and you are only reinforcing this feeling i have of all ways being wrong when you do this!!, I am Done and let it go like you asked, and now you are downstairs packing like you are Going to leave... Something you said you would never do.. yet.. here you are.. and i am not suppose to say anything! because that would be pushing you..but when i leave you alone, all you do is snarl... YET YOU would say that I DROVE you to this....NO ONE MAKES ANYONE DO ANYTHING!!! these are choices YOU are making. YOU. NOT ME making you make these choices. but....ITS all my fault. How do I ever Do the right thing by you if when i do what you ask its wrong? i cant even ask you a question without you snickering at me, like i am a fool for asking.. don't you see how this is Emotional Blackmail??? but, yet i am suppose to just let you have your way and pout and snarl, and expect everyone to walk on egg shells around you and when i point that out its ME picking a fight??? But, you Break my heart and tell me to leave and then say I have an emotional rollercoster!? then Expect to let you come back in, like nothing ever happened.. It NOT OK! When does the madness end... Don't i deserve better? Is this really what you want? Because it only looks to me right now, by your actions, like everything you have said all this time is only words...and that you were only looking for a time that it was convenient for you to be done, to leave, and when you were done you would walk away without a second glance. Damn the Consequences! But, yet I'm sure if you were asked.. you'd say... It was all me. I JUST DON'T GET IT! HOW am I the ONE WHO'S ALL TO BLAME! Don't you see that if you want someone to change you have to LOOK at YOURSELF and CHANGE yourself? YOU say that if only ID given YOU the CONSIDERATION YOU ASKED this wouldn't be an Issue. But, how is it ever ONE persons Fault? IT cant Possibly BE! don't you see that your refusal to Hear me only Pushes me away and makes this Necessary? Why cant you Put the mirror on yourself for once? It Always Takes 2 to make something... And if you cant talk about it .. then WHAT do you have? then you have sadness and loneliness and Destruction.. and Break down of relationship...and Broken hearts everywhere... Not just yours or mine... is that REALLY what you want? I know that you Probably don't want me Blogging about this.. but you Leave me no Choice! how Else am i Suppose to Process this? What Else Do you Expect me to do? if you don't want to hear me, and you DON'T want me to talk to someone else that you say hates you. You Don't want to talk about this, You don't want me to talk to anyone else about this, I cant JUST hold it INSIDE and let it SIMMER AND FESTER Then WHERE DO I GO?... if you wont hear me, and I cant talk to anyone else, Then Where do i GO? I guess i Just let you do what you think you need to. I guess i will do what I think i need to.. Because I cant let this go. This Entire Family Deserves Better than This! Much Better. I am sitting here With Actually Physical Chest pain because of all this... I don't know else to do other than to turn this over To God and to Seek Godly Counsel, Because i am at my very end. I don't know what else to do.. Because, from where i am Standing, it looks to me like The Enemy, and the forces( and People) that have tried to Destroy this Relationship from the Beginning, Have won! and that makes me SADDER than anything. They have won and YOU are either too Prideful to care... Or You just Plain don't care. If its your dislike about being wrong about anything then its your own foolish Pride that doesn't allow you to see the Hurt and damage its causing.
and that is Not something that is Ever going to change, and its going to be a mountain you will go around ALL your life.. take it from someone who's experienced it. I really Don't care if you read this or not. This is something I have to do for me, since you cant ( or wont) seem to hear me. Father GOD i KNOW that YOU have PLANS for this FAMILY!!!and RIGHT NOW in Jesus NAME, I come AGAINST the forces of DARKNESS that Are TRYING TO DESTROY this family and this MARRIAGE AND I SAY TO LEAVE! YOU can NOT HAVE THIS RELATIONSHIP.. GODS WORD SAYS In ISAIAH 54: 17 NO WEAPON FORMED against ME SHALL PROSPER, and THOSE Who rise UP AGAINST ME in Judgment Shall BE Proved a Fraud! THIS IS MY SPIRITUAL Heritage FROM GOD as HIS Child! and His Word Will Not return VOID I HAVE to Hang on to that.. I MUST!
Friday, December 19, 2008
This is what i Did all day.......Stayed Home and In the house because of this.....
A wonderful ICE STORM! I had to to stay home with my kids.. But it gave me a 3 day weekend. So, I Cleaned in the Morning, and then surfed and played and watched movies all day. I am REALLY tired because of the fact i stayed up late Because The storm was suppose to get here alot earlier then it actually did... that is the main reason why i am not Making a Deep Blog post... Just sharing my day.....
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
During our Lunch time at work, I was doing my thing,when I called The next customer over and told them i was open and Available to help who ever was next. A lady came over and started to give me her order, when she said, " Didn't you used to live at Dupont Estates?" I was floored and Speechless for a couple seconds, when i replied" yes i did, but i lived there from 98-2000". She said " Yeah, i know, i used to be your neighbor I saw you with your girls all the time". WOW! Imagine that! Someone That Used to be my neighbor from a Place that i haven't live in 8YRS!! and the Girls she was referring to are featured above... they were just little when we lived there, and i was a Single Mom then. I was Astounded by the fact I must have made SOME sort of IMPACT on her for her to remember me after not seeing me for 8YEARS! WOW!! For me, it all goes back to the fact that, as Christians we need to be sure that our walk matches our talk.( and i didn't know ANYTHING about having a A walk with God then!) Because we never know who's watching us. But, today, when she said that, i just thanked God that i did something right away back then. In a time that was really rough for me, did something that made a Neighbor i had 8 yrs previously, remember me on a random visit to have Lunch at Chick-fil-a. So, be encouraged if you feel like you don't matter, or if you feel like the things you do don't really amount to much because they are just ordinary things. You never know when you are going to do something or be something to someone that you think is just ordinary, that will make them remember you after not seeing you for 8 yrs!
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Monday, December 15, 2008
Sunday, December 14, 2008
This Song really Spoke to me today at My Church's Service. We have 2 services and Our choir( that i am a part of) Sings on Special occasions, which Christmas is one of the Most special occasions! This is The Cry of my Heart( well, one of them, anyway!) Here are the Lyrics. I had lyrics to go with the Widget, but they were Incomplete! and you gotta see the lyrics with the song! any way here goes!
What else can i do- Steve Fee:
Your love for me is a healing comfort for me
Your grace to me is a matchless gift to me
Your power in me is a mighty river in me
At the end of the day with the setting of the sun
after all is said and done
What else can i do but worship? What else can i do but bow?
'cause all i really long for is you all i really yearn for us you
Your Sovereignty is a sure foundation for me
your care for me is enduring peace in me
Repeat pre chorus x1
Repeat Chorus x1
What else can i do but praise you
Joining in the sound of heaven's song
cause i really long for is you and all i really yearn for is you
and all i really need lord, is you.
Enjoy!--->look at the widget next to this post
Saturday, December 13, 2008
- moderately expressed extravert
- distinctively expressed sensing personality
- moderately expressed feeling personality
- slightly expressed judging personality
Providers take it upon themselves to insure the health and welfare of those in their care, but they are also the most sociable of all the Guardians, and thus are the great nurturers of social institutions such as schools, churches, social clubs, and civic groups. Providers are very likely more than ten percent of the population, and this is fortunate for the rest of us, because friendly social service is a key to their nature. Wherever they go, Providers happily give their time and energy to make sure that the needs of others are met, and that social functions are a success.
Highly cooperative themselves, Providers are skilled in maintaining teamwork among their helpers, and are also tireless in their attention to the details of furnishing goods and services. They make excellent chairpersons in charge of dances, banquets, class reunions, charity fund-raisers, and the like. They are without peer as masters of ceremonies, able to speak publicly with ease and confidence. And they are outstanding hosts or hostesses, knowing everyone by name, and seemingly aware of what everyone's been doing. Providers love to entertain, and are always concerned about the needs of their guests, wanting to make sure that all are involved and provided for.
Friendly, outgoing, neighborly - in a word, Providers are gregarious, so much so that they can become restless when isolated from people. They love to talk with others, and will often strike up a conversation with strangers and chat pleasantly about any topic that comes to mind. Friendships matter a great deal to Providers, and their conversations with friends often touch on good times from years past. Family traditions are also sacred to them, and they carefully observe birthdays and anniversaries. In addition, Providers show a delightful fascination with news of their friends and neighbors. If we wish to know what's been going on in the local community, school, or church, they're happy to fill us in on all the details.
Providers are extremely sensitive to the feelings of others, which makes them perhaps the most sympathetic of all the types, but which also leaves them somewhat self-conscious, that is, highly sensitive to what others think of them. Loving and affectionate themselves, they need to be loved in return. In fact, Providers can be crushed by personal criticism, and are happiest when given ample appreciation both for themselves personally and for the tireless service they give to others.
William Howard Taft, Barbara Walters, J C Penney, Ray Kroc, Louis B. Mayer, Sam Walton, Dolley Madison, and Dave Thomas are examples of Provider Guardians.
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Friday, December 12, 2008
Anyone else have trouble getting their kids to Follow Directions, or Guidelines, and/ or House rules?
My Kids( all but one) Don't seem to have any regard for any thing my Husband and i say! I don't know what to do about this?? It drives me INSANE! Punishing them doesn't seem to help, taking stuff away doesn't seem to help, rewarding them when i catch them doing stuff right doesn't seem to help. I have gotten to the Point when i just reward the ONE child that seems to have a clue. The others Just don't seem to care.
The three that don't do what they are told, lets call them the MEME's just seem to sit around when they are not at school, On their big fat sense of Entitlement. The one that DOES take the intuitive and do what needs to be done, i will call the NOTME. NOTME does things because they need to be done, NOTME doesn't expect to be rewarded, although we DO reward notme, because, in life outside of living with mom and dad, when you work hard, you usually DO get rewarded for HARD WORK. Anyway, the MEME's just cant understand why Mom and Dad are always getting frustrated with them, despite the fact that they have a VERY good example in NOTME. SO, We have decided to REWARD Notme frequently, hoping that MEME will see this and wonder why notme gets things they don't. Hopefully this works! I am at my wits end with them!